September started off colorfully; it almost felt like spring was hiding in the bushes. My springtime routine found its way back to my life, and I was flipping through poetry books, taking photos, and treading the pathways of a plants nursery. A few days in, I found myself too weary, avoiding both my desk and my reading nook. I just wanted to be in bed, watching whatever pops up on my social feed. I am, however, trying to reinvigorate myself.

Drinking cappuccino

Listening to I Like Me Better by Lauv + Havadan Sudan by Ebru Yaşar

Eating potatoes

Reevaluating old friendships and reminiscing over their termination

Hiding behind locked blog posts

Reading here and there and everywhere

Crushing on Bri Guy from Youtube

Wearing a maroon dress

Experiencing A LOT of “fail” days

Feeling exceptionally frustrated over the situation of our job market

Also feeling nostalgic

Fangirling over the pink hues in the skies

Loving the gradual drop of weather

Fearing making any decisions

Eagerly waiting for fall



August is one of the few months I anticipate eagerly; it’s the season of dark, autumnal poems, and the month the summer heat lessens. After July’s bitterness, August didn’t necessarily come to wipe away the ashes, but it promised me clouds and a lunar eclipse, which was good enough for my soul.

Listening to Sayın Seyirciler by Ozan Doğulu feat. Ece Seçkin + Sen Olsan Bari by Aleyna Tilki

Wearing navy blue pajamas

Drinking Costa’s caramel lattes

Ticking off new cafes from my cafes-to-visit list

Feeling very moody

Reading The Pull of Gravity by Gae Polisner

Watching Turkish movies on Youtube

Craving pancakes, waffles, and ice cream (not all at once)

Eating milk and cereal

Obsessing over tic tac mints

Restraining myself from spending money

Lacking words and inspiration

Wrapping up my summer bucket list goals

Also wrapping up my third bullet journal of the year

Falling madly in love with nature and the moon

Buying second-hand books

Wishing for brighter, cooler days

Anticipating September



I started off the month by saying: I have high hopes about July, and let’s just say I still do. There was something so inspiring about July and that’s maybe because I believe in this: bad first half of the year then good last half of the year. So to me, July was always that month of resolution and seeking clarity. It’s midsummer, and my heart is full of sunshine, even when my days aren’t.

Listening to Yolla by Tarkan + Tekamül by Soner Sarıkabadayı

Drinking white mocha

Eating chicken noodles

Feeling very hopeful and blushy and empathetic

Obsessing over Seán McLoughlin

Watching PewDiePie and Jacksepticeye like there’s no tomorrow

Daydreaming about Edis Görgülü

Practicing resilience and empathy

Wearing my hair in a low, loose bun

Failing to find content for the blog as usual

Gaining weight slowly but surely

Stress-eating chips

Successfully fulfilling my July goal of not shopping

Avoiding my desk and spending my nights bedbound

Fearing how fast the days and weeks go by

Tried watching Supergirl but stopped at episode 3

Craving all the desserts in the world

Anticipating the day I land a job because I’m TIRED here


Without referring to my Currently post of last June, I can recall that I called it bittersweet and I gave it a taste of “salted caramel,” to describe it. I can say this June has been quite similar in the sense of having good days with a hint of uncertainty and boredom. Except this year, instead of drooling over ice cream cookie sandwiches, I’ve got my heart desirably craving chocolate custard-filled doughnuts.

Drinking Costa’s caramel lattes

Listening to Tebessem by Mesut Kurtis + Edhak by Humood Al Khudher

Obsessing over custard-filled doughtnuts

Feeling extremely uninspired and unproductive

Wearing a black tee tied in a knot and an Aztec-printed skirt

Eating everything, literally everything

Craving all the desserts 24/7 (the sweet tooth only peeks in Ramadan)

Watching Youtube religiously, especially drama-related content

Losing and gaining weight

Failing to properly utilize my time & tick off things from my to-do list

Starting the third bullet journal of the year

Slightly missing morning coffee

Embracing nightly adventures (usually not a fan)

Squeezing a 20-minute workout in my daily routine

Anticipating Eid festivities


It was hard to pinpoint how I felt about the month of May. Of course, as every year, whatever comes after poetry month becomes just bland, sadly; nothing can top off April. I’ve witnessed a lot of unproductive days, where I didn’t want to pick up a journal to doodle on or start a self-project of any sort. I was hit by a wave of dullness and no ounce of inspiration whatsoever. But there’s twelve more days to the month, so who knows what it has in store?

Listening to Yak by Aydın Kurtoğlu (Berk İşgören Remix) + Ma Tlam Al Ain by Hazza Al Raesi

Drinking at-home cappuccinos

Eating leftover candy from half of Shabaan festivities

Watching house tours on Youtube

Wearing my favorite fragrance mist, Japanese Cherry Blossom

Feeling extremely unproductive and dull

Reading about plants and flower characteristics

Failing to get writing inspiration for the blogs

Spending my evenings outdoors, chilling under the sun with my cats

Craving a cookie ice cream sandwich

Compiling a pre-Ramadan to-buy list

Weirdly not obsessing over anything or anyone

Fearing the weight I might end up gaining next month

Getting all my errands done and sorted, thankfully

Ticking off cafes from my to-visit list

Anticipating my muse’s return


The highly-anticipated month have sprung in its joyous of strokes against my door. April, the national month of poetry, was very promising with every passing day. It’s the month I turned 24. It’s the month I graduated officially (after being done with school one year and a half ago). But with those joys, came the bitter realization that no one bothered to congratulate me in both occasions, so I made poetry my focal point. And I wrote and wrote and wrote.

Drinking cappuccino

Listening to Tüh Tüh by Aydın Kurtoğlu & Küsme Aşka by Oğuzhan Koç

Indulging in dark chocolate

Eating tons and tons of junk food

Feeling both inspired and uninspired

Revamping my workspace

Spoiling myself by buying the things I’ve had in my dream to-buy list

Collecting scraps of paper

Participating in the national poetry month

Neglecting my blogs as a result

Considering finding new friends

Craving that one thing that God knows I’ve been wanting for a while

Wearing a flower crown

Trying to reconnect with people

Watching strangers’ proposal videos on Youtube

Looking forward to half of Shabaan + Ramadan



The beginning of March was quite a refreshing kick to the upcoming spring. It commenced with an inspiring list of goals that I was able to accomplish surprisingly too soon within the month, which made me want to do beyond the written tasks: I refurbished my desk area. I attended an event at last after avoiding any sorts of social contact. I visited a flower nursery. It was just inspiration upon inspiration. There were, of course, days that were so off and weird, and maybe it was just the dusty storms.

Drinking maple macchiato

Eating Lays chips

Listening to Weight in Gold (Ekali remix) by Gallant + Let Me Love You (DJ Snake ft. Justin Bieber) / Tum Hi Ho cover mashup by Vidya Vox

Wearing a huge dusty pink shirt with gray sweats

Watching loads of journaling and studying videos

Ditching TV series and outgrowing them

Zealously inspired to write and blog (hope I don’t jinx myself)

Addicted to the spring vibes

Feeling a tiny bit upset over my wavering social skills

Reading Poems for Gardeners

Craving a visit to the new Kinokuniya

Wishing for the sudden gloomy storms to fade

Losing hope on ever landing a job

And losing people

Started Bullet Journal volume two

Quite disappointed with my sudden Twitter craze (too active this month!)

Meeting new faces

Awaiting good news of any sort